it's all about me!!! is busy a crime? what can i do on that?

it is coz i am too busy and losing something, someone? i doubt.

from now on, i  would not lose anyone, anything, even when i am busy, i promise.

撒但說：「我們無法使基督徒不去教會。我們也沒辦法讓他們不讀經、不明白真理。我們甚至不能讓他們遠離他們的救主。若是他們與基督耶穌產生緊密聯結我們的權勢就敗落了！

 所以讓他們去教會！讓他們去吧！我們所要做的就是竊取他們的時間，讓他們沒有時間來與主親近聯結…這就是我要你們做的！」又說：「叫這些人無法和他們的救主有天天緊密的聯結。」
惡魔邪靈大喊：「我們該怎麼做？」
撒但回答說：「讓他們忙碌啊！讓他們為了生活上的小事忙碌，製造無盡的虛華來佔滿他們的腦袋！

 引誘他們去花錢！盡情地花錢吧！讓他們因花錢而不停地借錢、借錢吧！
讓妻子外出長時間工作，讓丈夫一週工作七天，每天十到十二個小時，這樣才有足夠的錢滿足他們虛華的生活方式。

讓父母們沒有時間陪伴孩子，漸漸地使家人們疏遠，好讓他們的家再也無法紓解工作帶來的壓力！
讓他們的腦子裡裝滿世界的事，叫他們再也聽不見那微小的聲音，讓他們隨到之處都響著靡靡之音，他們的家隨時都開著電視、放著VCD，他們的電腦日夜開著，叫所有商站、餐館時時播放世界音樂！這樣就足以讓他們的腦袋無法與基督聯結。

讓他們的桌上擺滿各樣雜誌與報紙，用24小時新聞來佔滿他們的意念，當他們開車時，用各式各樣的看板來吸引他們的注意力。

讓他們的信箱塞滿各種垃圾郵件，各大超市百貨公司的減價單，各樣的抽獎單、免費產品、免費服務，各式各樣虛假的希望，還要讓那些身材絞好、年輕貌美的女人不停地出現在雜誌與電視上，叫丈夫們相信外在美最重要，這樣他們就對自己妻子感到不滿意，讓他們的妻子忙碌到無法愛他們的丈夫，  讓他們頭痛！

若是妻子們無法讓丈夫得到愛，那麼丈夫們就會到其他地方去找愛，這樣一來，家庭便變得非常脆弱。

讓他們在遊樂場所瘋狂遊戲，回來時筋疲力盡，讓他們忙著去兒童樂園，忙著去看球賽、戲劇、電影、音樂會，叫他們沒有時間去神所創造的大自然。
讓他們忙碌、忙碌、忙碌！而當他們去聚會時，讓他們搞小圈圈、講閒話，這樣一來，就有無窮盡的問題發生，讓他們的生活中有無盡的理由，叫他們不從基督得力，很快地，他們就會只懂得靠自己。

joyful joyful!!! i am very happy today. it's the first time, after almost 3 years, i sing for God in morning "worship" again. experience was so cool. this is the first time i have no fear, i try to concentrate on my singing and hear what mc said. just my praising to God direct, i mean he is upstairs, of top of the hall, looking at me, opening his hand.

i receive most positive feedback from churchmate, whereas the most impressive one is my progression. i try to put dynamic phase in the singing, to enrich the feeling of the whole song. this is what peter teach. hope i can continue to perform the best for God in the future.

first B-day cake

fri was also wonderful. i get the first b-day hand-made cake (mint-choco-cheese!) and dinner! was prepared by my singing classmates, esp. ling ling. the first time i've been to Ei Cid, food and environment were very much ok!!! also thanks to olivia for the b-day cookies. i want the 28th b-day to be unforgettable with big crowded of people. i want a noisy one!! coz the past 6 years was a quiet one. this year have to be different, at least this year.

 wa, already 28 lah, but i still need to wait for half year, fai d lah, can't help to wait ga lah!!!! too horrible.

"and do not seek what u should eat or what you should drink, nor have an anxious mind."

"for all these things the nations of the world seek after, and your Father knows that you need these things. but seek the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added to you."

when i was working in travel agency after grad, every month i spent most of my salary paying for grant loan, shopping, mother, etc; left office sharp at six then went out with boyfriend. we ate noodles cost $10 each. and day by day we did the same. everything seemed very fine.

eventually, we dislike this way of living, and seek for better standard, looking for more "happiness" and "comfort". after years of searching, i am self-employed and seems can get what i want, though not rich, at least "enough"! haha, but today, after two years, i am not happy, but worry all the time!! rediculous! worry my earning not as good as my friends, worry my downline cannot reach her target, worry my parents' health, worry i cannot get a good husby, worry my clients will leave me, worry others' comment me as a manager, woman, colleague...

every time i hear the LUKE in wedding, church, sharing, that we should seek the kingdom of God, i always ask myself, God, what is your kingdom? where is it? is it already around me? or still far away from me? who can bring me there? NOW i have to ask again, maybe every day once, seems u lead me to "sing" for you, but my throat having some problem, it is u? what should i react? my relationship with God is always tiny tide. can You tell me more, more obviously? God i need an answer heavily.

today know what i saw? i met the man, whom i was in love for six years, doing something that i hate very very much. of course he don't know i met him. say hello? no need lah, i'd better run away. it was the first time i saw him in such a bad image, on the other hand, he did not need to hide from me anymore. cool. i should have kept my eyes open always, the biggest one. but today still not late.

interestingly, his boss likes my very much. he would like to invite me for home gathering on mid-autumn fest nite. i appreciate that, truly, boss is such a nice guy (and nice crab crab as well). but i know it is also chance for 'the man' to meet me, either, no need lah. just keep my finger cross and look for a better "future" ba lah. a-men

today mattrew called me for mc in sales congress on oct. i am so glad to have this chance, however have to do the performance with sheng, therefore rejected. next time lah, i really want to be mc in company meeting, it was so interesting. he asked if i have preferred partner. clever man, that was a very good question. i just need 0.5 second to answer!!! however, need to calm down anyway. cannot walk faster that God. hehe.

i still need some rest, actually my health hinder my business a lot. God, please kiss my throat, as what u done to Pavorrati.